This morning I awoke thinking about someone who has been a very important part of my life for some time now yet I have never really fully appreciated her for the amazing person she is. I recently realized that I have done that with many people in my life, but this morning I want to talk about Jill.
Jill is many things; creative, sometimes very shy, she is unassuming, so very sweet - consistently, and she is motivated in what she chooses to do and perseveres when obstacles arise. Jill is one of the most physically attractive people I have ever met; she has a classically beautiful face with deep brown eyes and long brown hair, she is strong from the dancing and activities she does - it especially shows in her shapely legs. Jill tries to make everyone around her happy (sometimes to her own detriment) and asks for little to nothing in return. She has strong opinions which she can be hesitant to share, but when she does those around her feel lucky to have listened.
Jill is quiet around me. I don't know if she is quiet around most people...
I am writing what I know of Jill, and I want to know more.
Jill is dating my little brother Westley. I love my brother SO much and I am so thankful that he has someone as wonderful as Jill in his life. Over the years the two of them have been dating off and on, but always friends. Jill and I have spoken about relationships, life, and of course my brother. I always feel good when Jill is around, but I can't quite put my finger on why.
Lately I have had more frequent opportunities to be around Jill since Westley moved in with Randy and I (happy face). Last night she was frustrated, and she said she was grumpy because she couldn't get to sleep. She really wasn't very grumpy, but her behavior did change slightly reflecting that she was frustrated. I don't think I had ever seen Jill like this, and I was happy she felt comfortable enough to express what she was feeling around me. There was a moment where she flopped in a chair and kinda made a face. It was this moment that came to me this morning...
I think sometimes you can only really get to know people when they let you in on the bad emotions as well as the good. That's how you can make a connection and feel closer to others. I have completely taken Jill for granted, and I want to start appreciating her more. I don't know if my behavior toward her will change much, but I hope to be able to get to know her more through the variety of emotions she feels.
A few months ago I spoke to a co-worker/supervisor about an overlap one of my other supervisors had written on me. I felt my supervisor hadn't had all the information when he marked me down in a specific performance area and I was seeking advice on how to handle the situation. I was pretty frustrated when I explained what had happened and then I declared "I kicked butt on that part!" My co-worker as always gave me excellent advice and then she said something even more important: "Nicole" she said, "I feel like this is the first real conversation I have had with you, and I like it." She explained that it was good that I was being passionate, and showing frustration, and sharing that part of myself with her. I didn't really understand, but I think it makes more sense now.
Thanks Jill for helping me understand and for sharing a part of yourself with me
